divine galaxy

in leui (sp?)  of recent physical uncomfortableness with head and what not, I realized that I need to excercise more. Thus I have taken up running. I am actually part of a Gold's gym and I have been managing to get to it about once a week. But when I get home from work I am always tired, I am a nap person and I need rest. So going to the gym can sometimes be really hard. But running it turns out is easy. Just open my apartment door and start running, see simple.

 

Thus recent trends in gift giving with my family have been great for my new hobby, running. Turns out that my family has taken to just giving me money on christmas, well actually we all just share cards with gift certificates and money now. No one really tries to figure each other out any more...which is good. Can't tell you how much junk I have collected over years of family gift giving.

 

I like shopping with other peoples money...lol. So I went to the local Dick's sporting goods store and spent my money on running gear. The gear they have nowadays is incredible. Keeps you warm in the cold, wicks away any moisture and looks pretty spiffy too. So each night I have been running for about 15 minutes. Thats about all I can do so far. And really I am just trying to get my heart rate up for 20 minutes or so, which is my goal.

 

Running has so far helped me lower my blood pressure a little. Hopefull it will lower it alot after a couple of months.

 

 

happy holidays all.

so this weekend I discovered that my body still has a say in my life. lol.

 

blood pressure apparently relates quite well to my state of being. and when I get stressed, which is actually the common state in my life, it gets higher, much higher.

 

to the point that I have had constant headaches for 3 weeks now and a doctors appointment on wednesday.

 

I have not seen a doctor for at least 6 years. I am not too fond of this profession because all they do is cure symptoms not dis-eases. I am at dis-ease with certain things in my life and that is apparent.

 

I just bought a blood pressure monitor this weekend at walmart, and it is quite a nifty gadget, takes your pressure in less then a minute.

 

and here is what I have discovered:

life stresses me....lol.

 

driving to work...stress

playing my favorite video game...stress

being at work and trying to talk to my boss....stress

driving home from work...stress

 

 

working out at the gym...lowers stress (by ALOT)

 

thus I now realize that I have let my enjoyment of working out at the gym slide for the past 6 years, and apparently my body finally said '...ENOUGH... get to the freakin gym and take care of me'.

 

and without further ado, I have started working out the past couple of days...and apparently I have to keep doing it as if my life depended on it....because it would seem that it does.

 

 

the body is such a wonderful instrument...think I'll see if I can keep it around for a bit longer...I have after all grown a little fond of it.  :)

I am not a doer. My wife is a doer. Doer's, well... do stuff. They always do it on time, and they do it to the best of their ability. But what doers don't ever do is question why. They don't ever ask why you do something or if it is the best thing to do. They just do.

 

This has caused me no end of frustration in my relationship with my wife, because like I said I am not a doer. I can do stuff, and in fact when I set my mind to something I can do things very well. But I am a questioner. I ask of everything around me....why? Why is something this way or that. Why did that person do that or this? Why is anything the way it is? Is this better or is that better and why?

 

How did I get hitched to a doer? Very few things do we see eye to eye on. Since she is always trying to figure out what she needs to do, I on the other hand ask if I actually need to do something, if there is a better way? or if I can just ignore it.

 

Something tells me that there is a life lesson here, see I am asking why....again.

 

 

other things doers do, is that they follow rules, almost religiously, even if they are not religious. If you don't follow the rules that a doer has then you didn't do it right. now that doesn't mean they will question you on it, because they are not questioners, they are doers. They will simply know that you didn't do it according to the rules, they will never adapt to a better strategy if it doesn't follow the rules, because the rules are like this invisible box that they can't go beyond.

 

on the other hand, I almost never follow rules, in fact I question the rules, why are they rules to begin with? who benefits from these rules? and if it's a stupid rule then why follow it? In fact I will look for something better that encompasses the rule and more, a new behavior or rule.

i had a weird dream last night, well I think they are most always weird, I have still not gotten the discipline to continue to right down my dreams and decipher over any extended period of time.

 

so i remember something of being in a computer game setting, i believe it was like a prehistoric dinosaur land, when all of a sudden I am driving in van and then onto a ramp that launches the van in the air. As soon as the van is in the air the back part of it, the part behind the driver seat area turns into a big balloon attached to the back of the van chassis. So that the van basically floats to the ground with a balloon attached to it.

 

no clue what it means, but it is very strange. I have no clue how vans floating in the air relate to anything in my life. although if I was to ask myself what a van symbolized it is usually something of the large transportation or capable of transporting many people, and balloons are nice and airy, or light. Maybe that interpretation can go somewhere, not sure.